Hello friends. I've been going through a bit of a rough patch lately and I could use any positive thoughts you could send my way.
On Thursday a friend of mine called and told me she lost her sweet baby twins at 20 weeks gestation. The enormity of that loss is something I'm still trying to wrap my head around. Both her and her husband are wonderful people, the kind that you only want good things for, and this simply does not seem fair. My heart aches for them.
On Monday Brady came home and told me a friend of his from work had passed away. He had been on a leave of absence for mono, and died in his home. He was in his 30's. Again I find myself asking, how is that fair? It simply does not make sense to me.
I feel like nothing is in my control, and everywhere I turn there is heartbreak and tragedy. So many people are hurting, and there isn't a damn thing I can do to make it better. It's frustrating. These recent events make having lost my job on Friday seem insignificant. I feel guilty for even being worried about myself. I know that there are several people who would gladly trade positions with me, but I'm still freaked out by not knowing what is going to happen in the next few weeks. Usually I am able to let go, to let God take control of the chaos in my life, but this time I can't seem to relinquish control. I want answers. I know I won't get them.
So please, I can use your thoughts and prayers for the families I mentioned, and for me to let it go and find my faith again.
