I rarely link up to other blogs, but
Mandy’s post inspired me. I’ve been thinking about this for the past few days, and this blog topic seems like a good opportunity to put it on paper (screen?).
A Work in Progress is the perfect description of what and who I am. I am constantly trying to improve myself; my health, my knowledge, my patience. Nerd alert: If there is something I don’t know I research it, fact check, cross reference, and study until I feel confident in my knowledge, I am trying to exercise and eat well, I chastise myself for angry thoughts. I am trying, really trying, to evolve as a person. I feel like I am never finished, I am raw material.
I stumble (literally and figuratively), trip, fall of my path. I make every wrong choice, pick the wrong door and throw myself into misguided adventures. I don’t gracefully blunder, but I do it with GUESTO. It’s a little ridiculous actually, but it’s a big part of who I am. Sometimes (often) I pick the wrong choice and I wind up back at square one. I used to be really hard on myself about my failures, but I’m ok with it now. I learn something new about myself and about life from every mistake I make. I have very limited “what ifs” and “somedays” because I go out and try rather than just wish and dream. Yes, it makes my life a train wreck at times, but it’s what makes my life full. This blog is for me to document my ups and downs, my experiences, and my progress as a person.
Below is a song I heard a few years ago and I think it describes what I mean perfectly:
Colorado Sunrise
And if I had something to say to you I'd whisper it softly,
kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me.
shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight,
hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.
I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made
cuz my tongue is tied to tonsils and I need to s#!t and shave
I’m a shade to pale for handsome and have habits I can't shake
and if you try to take that from me well I'll never be the same
train wreck that I am
and I am what I am what I am
a train wreck, that I am
and I am what I am what I am
a train wreck
and as long as it's okay with you I think I'll stay right here.
I got no where to go cuz where to go is up to you, dear.
happy as a clam I see the glimmer in your eyes.
hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.
no car and never cared because I got no place to go.
but in a room, a single wall, I couldn't pay a plant to grow
you can try and make this pretty, pick up all my dirty clothes.
and if you never really get me then I guess you'll never know the
train wreck that I am
and I am what I am what I am
a train wreck that I am
and I am what I am what I am
a train wreck
I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I’ve made
cuz my tongue is tied to tonsils and I need to s#!t and shave
I'm a shade to pale for handsome and have habits I can't shake
and if you try to take that from me well I wouldn't be the same
train wreck that I am
and I am what I am what I am
(Colorado sunrise)
a train wreck
that I am
and I am what I am what I am
(Colorado sunrise)
train wreck.
that I am
(If I had something to say to you I'd whisper it softly)
and i am what I am what I am
(kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me)
a train wreck
that I am
(shiver on your roof see your face lit by starlight)
and I am what I am what I am
(hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise)
a train wreck.
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Whew. Made it!
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